Haters

I understand living in the past isn't healthy.

But there are things i will never forget.
Things that hurt me then, and still hurt me now.

They impacted my life to an extent and i just cant "forgive and forget" for there is no way to just "let it go."
As much as i want to forget, its seared in my brain for a lifetime of trust issues, pain, etc...
But the thing is, im STRONGER then i once was.  And i will stand TALLER then the haters.

Regrets...

People always say that they never regret something that they have done or said. But the chances are, they do.

Life is full of REGRETS.

Things are done and said without looking back, but just because you move on from the past, does not mean you don't think back and regret it.

My regrets: Dating BJ. Dating JB. Not speaking up when i had the chance. Not standing up for myself. Not fighting back. Not being the person i wanted to be.

Looking back, these things were all meant to happen. If they didn't, i wouldn't be the person i am today. And like i have said in the past, I Wouldn't Change Me For Anyone.

I Dare You To Dream

Dreams are alive everywhere we look.
Sitting in class, look at the person sitting next to. That person(believe it or not) has dreams just like you and I do.
Dreams are a common thing to with hold. But the magnificent thing is understanding what those dreams are.
Maybe the person sitting next to has the same dreams as you. You'll never know unless you ask(even though that might be an awkward question).
Without dreams there would be nothing in life to look forward to.
With out dreams there would be nothing to push yourself to.
Dreams are there so that you can push yourself and accomplish goals.
Dreams are there for you. And only you!

"Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know Im not perfect, and i dont plan to be.
But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."
~Bob Marley.

That quote, only a few lines long, sums up my whole life at the moment.
I dont know if this is just me but this quote sums up my whole life more and more the more i live my life. I cant help but think that people can be heartless, but they can and that makes literally cry.

But the MORE someone puts me down, the MORE someone makes me cry, the MORE someone makes me feel worthless, the StRONGER I am as a person.

So thank you Heartless people for being so cruel and SHAPING the person I have become because i wouldnt trade me for anyone

Fav. Song 2: Dance Alone!

It's been a really really messed up week
Seven days of torture, seven days of bitter
And my girlfriend went and cheated on me
She's a California dime but it's time for me to quit her

La la la, whatever, la la la, it doesn't matter, la la la, oh well, la la la

We're going at it tonight tonight
There's a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don't know if I'll make it but watch how good I'll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

I woke up with a strange tattoo
Not sure how I got it, not a dollar in my pocket
And it kinda looks just like you
Mixed with Zach Galifianakis

La la la, whatever, la la la, it doesn't matter, la la la, oh well, la la la

We're going at it tonight tonight
There's a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don't know if I'll make it but watch how good I'll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

You got me singing like
Woah, come on, ohh, it doesn't matter, woah, everybody now, ohh

Just don't stop let's keep the beat pumpin'
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
It's my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Just don't stop let's keep the beat pumpin'

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Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
It's my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Its you and me and were runnin this town
And its me and you and were shakin the ground
And ain't nobody gonna tell us to go cause this is our show

Everybody
Woah, come on, ohh, all you animals
Woah, let me hear you now, ohh

Tonight tonight there's a party on the rooftop top of the world
Tonight tonight and were dancing on the edge of the Hollywood sign
I don't know if I'll make it but watch how good I'll fake it
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight
Its all right, all right, tonight, tonight
Yeah its all right, all right, tonight, tonight

Just singing like
Woah, come on, ohh, all you party people
Woah, all you singletons, ohh, even the white kids

Just don't stop lets keep the beat pumpin'
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
Its my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

Just don't stop lets keep the beat pumpin'
Keep the beat up, lets drop the beat down
Its my party dance if I want to
We can get crazy let it all out

I like....

Im not sure why im like this or even why im so afraid to admit the things that are obvious to the naked eye. But i am.

I like you. And i hope that our relationship will grow like you have insisted it will.

The thing is, I hav a wall up from everything that has happened in the past. Im also afraid to tell you the things that shape and define the way I live my life.

Can I just be open with you?
Is that to much to ask?
 Can you be open with me too?

Dear What Once Was

I was so happy with you yet so blind to see what you were doing to me. You changed me to a person I didnt want to be.  And now im stuck with the realization that i can never be the same again. Everything you put me through has struck me like lightning.

Please stay out of my life so I dont have to have a constent reminder of what was.

I loved you, and you will always be apart of my heart. But the way i was treated and the way things ended.

You say you loved me when all you wanted was my body and the image of having a cute girlfriend.

Please get out of my life and never come back.